She loves me?

"Sometimes, when I  am at work,  I miss you so much."  I was genuinely surprised when D said this to me a few days ago.  I am so broken that I cannot believe that anyone, even my wife, would truly love me.  Instead, I feel like there is a man out there that would be a better husband to D than I am, but she settles for me.

I am so tired...  I have wallowed in depression for so much of my life; it becomes harder and harder to bounce back.  I search for the magic solution to my woes, but in my heart,  I realize that success is a result of a lot of hard work and sacrifice, neither of which I am particularly fond of.  It is much easier  to simply say "I'm depressed, I can't do XXXX" then to make the changes that will improve my situation.