Yesterday, I spent 14 hours wasting away in Clickerville. I am feeling overwhelmed with all the responsibilities and stress I am trying to manage. If I were talking with someone else experiencing similar issues I would tell them to suck it up and get on with it. However, I am not very good at taking my own advice. The catalyst for staying home was the lack of a vehicle as my truck was in for repair and there is no way I am driving the jeep 12 miles when the temperature is in the "teens". I could have worked from home but instead chose to waste the day watching countless movies. My therapist would likely say that I just needed a break. I say that I am lazy and selfish, neither of which I am proud of. I must do better...
Following is a list of items at the root of my anxiety that I need to address:
Rebuild relationship with oldest son J
Learn song to give D for Christmas
Check in on brother S
Gift pack for nephew in Iraq
Stop wasting time on TV
Put money on S's phone card
Resolve youth group issues or move on
Find $7,500 to pay lawyer
Read more
Write more
Play guitar more
Christmas shopping
Refinance house
Unpaid taxes
Finish stairs
Rebuild jeep top
The most effective thing that I can do is to reduce or eliminate time in front of the TV. I shall make this one of my highest priorities.
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Doh't heap overwhelming stress upon yourself, Dirk. Humans aren't meant to take such pyschological weight. Take it from someone who used to loathe himself pretty intensely...it wears you down. It hollows you out...You are allowed some time in front of the television to recharge...especially with good movies or television. (Hell, me and my partner LIVE for watching shows on DVD...Boston Legal, Dexter, Lost, 24...)
Life isn't supposed to be a self-induced purgatory, friend. Cut yourself a bit of slack...At least you are TRYING to be a good father and head of family. Some people jump into the thing and still retain their narcissism BIG time...
Hang in there, buddy...GaP
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