Blah Day

Today is cold, windy and a bit raw with a light freezing rain coating everything in a layer of ice. The weather is congruent with my mood which is a bit dark. I almost did not stop by the coffee shop this morning in attempt to control my waist line and spending. My decision always occurs at a traffic light at which I must turn right towards my client’s office or proceed straight to the town square where the coffee shop is located. It was a difficult decision today but I decided to indulge because I have not done so for 3 days. I passed up my usual egg sandwich and purchased a wholesome bran muffin from a local bakery. I also changed my usual drink to a "triple venti no-fat no whipped mocha".

This year’s holiday gatherings were relatively uneventful though I was less anxious than usual. All this "family-stuff" completely drains me though. I have a lot on my mind and I often grow uneasy when the conversation pauses.

I spent more time than usual purchasing gifts that would most surprise D and as a result she was quite delighted Christmas morning. Most of our purchases for the kids were utilitarian in nature and not particularly rewarding for the giver or giftee. Don't get me wrong, Christmas morning was thoroughly enjoyable with a few pleasant surprises. But it lacked that one "special" gift that one so enjoys giving.