Responsibility

This past weekend was a short one as I worked Saturday.  Sunday, J and I worked on removing an engine from a donor Trans Am that is destined for my Jeep.  We got along well and  it was a productive day.

Lately I have been thinking a lot about the situation between my sister and our father.  My sisters mental health is not improving and I don't expect it will unless she can reconcile with her past.  I am considering embarking on a quest that will ultimately result in her meeting with our father to confront him for the purpose of resolving her trauma.  I am personally struggling with my relationship with my father because I hold him responsible for my sisters condition.  I believe that he committed a horrible deed  for which  he has never accepted the responsibility and or consequences.  Lately I have been somewhat obsessed with the question "What if he didn't do what he has been accused of"?  I think that it is time that I talk with him directly, without the cloak of vagueness.  But then I will have to deal with the consequences of his response.  What if he admits it?  What then is my responsibility?  It would appear that avoiding the entire issue is the easier path; however, as I have stated  previously, with wisdom comes responsibility.  I know the right thing to do...  I am just afraid of the consequences.