OMG! Life is good?

Yesterday was a good day.  I think I was actually happy!  Imagine that...  I have been stressed out for the past few days preparing for an important presentation.  Yesterday I bought lunch for twenty or so of my client's employees and demonstrated a new document management system I have been building for them.  The presentation went very well and I was rewarded with a tremendous sense of relief!

Following the meeting, I jumped in my car and drove over to B's college to pick him up for an appointment with his doctor.  We were able to spend the entire afternoon together and we really enjoyed each others company.  I was actually laughing and joking with him and when I dropped him off, he gave me a great hug and thanked me for everything.   

I have been praying a lot lately.  I mostly pray for a good mood, increased motivation, better discipline and for others in need.  Yesterday I felt like I was able to actually talk with God.  Maybe I am just a lunatic lost in Darwin's world, but it felt really, really good.  Like everyone else, I struggle with the overwhelming evidence that there is no God, but I know that since I started praying, my life has gotten much better.  Perhaps it is a delusional placebo affect; but even if it is, I will take it.  The true challenge to my faith will come when I face the inevitable crisis and or tragedy that will cause me to shout "How can a just God allow me to suffer like this?".  Perhaps I will even gnash my teeth...