Frustrated

This morning I was greeted by a cool, crisp early-winter day. B and I took the dog for a walk and talked for a while. He always amazes me with his evolving maturity. B is incredibly smart and his self confidence increases daily. I am lucky to be his Dad. J on the other hand, continues in his usual ways. Last night D asked him to take the dog out and he got all pissy. I still have not dealt with his theft of our credit card and am not even sure what I will do.

Today I found out that our 1st SGT and the CO have created new squads and my son B is not a squad leader. I don't have a problem with this supposed decision as long as I can see the criteria underlying it. As the XO of the unit I should not have heard about this from my son. I am torn as to how I should respond to this issue. I fully expect that if I talk to the CO about it he will say that no decision was made. Maybe I should just let it go...

Sitting in front of my computer keyboard in my home office, are unopened anniversary and Christmas cards from D for the past two years. I felt uncomfortable opening them during my depressive state. They remain unopened as I feel that I must first creatively express my love for D in order to do them justice. I have been trying to write a song but I have been struggling with the words and feelings. I shall redouble my creative efforts in hopes of completing a sonnet by Christmas.