In search of dopamine

Today just flat out sucks... I have not motivation and I am really having to push myself just to go to the club and work out.

I found this blog from a 21 year old woman from the northeast that has my interest. Curious how I seek these woman out. What would happen if she was a 45 year old unattractive woman? Would I suddenly have no interest in learning more about her and reading her blog. Fucking society!!! We, as men, have been conditioned from the beginning of time to seek out the healthiest, most attractive woman of child bearing age. Then we have advertising companies touting young attractive woman as being the most desirable. How does a middle-aged man not feel the desire to succomb to all this influence. And, when he does, it is a bad thing. I guess I am shallow but I really don't want to be. I need to fix this problem. It makes me feel bad about myself. I think some of my answers lie in Jungs teachings. I need to spend more time with them.