In some weird, twisted way, I miss my depression. The thing about being an active depressive, is that you experience really powerful emotions. The part about wanting to harm yourself kinda sucks... But I miss feeling something that evokes strong emotions, even something that sucks! My life is great... I am incredibly fortunate... But fuck, it is boring as shit. I really need to find something to fill this void.
Ok, enough about me and my pathetic whining. My brother and sister in-law once again booted out my 19 year-old nephew. The problem now, is that winter is upon us and it is frigging cold out. Supposedly he is living in his car. I was 17 when my Dad left me on my own, so I know what it is like. I always had a good work ethic and the ability to get jobs pretty easily. My nephew does not share those characteristics with me. I will reach out to him and do what I can. Unfortunately, he stole from us when he was last at our house so staying with us, even as respite is not an option.
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A level playing field is not nearly as much fun huh?
I often find powerful emotions in music and then feel really stupid for crying. Which has nothing to do with what you are talking about but I thought I'd throw it out there.
I know what you mean about this. I tend to feel negative emotions so much more intensely than positive ones.
Happy New Year, D. May you find the perfect balance and harmony in your life that will keep you eternally happy.
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