FML

I just watched the sheriff once again take my son into custody to transport him to the county jail. The first time this happened I felt the punishment was a good thing. It would help J to feel that he paid a price for what he had done, even if it was an accident. This time he was fucked over by himself for making some really bad decisions, but also by my stupid neighbor who thought it would be a good wake-up call, a vindictive prosecutor and an inept defender. And his Dad for not doing more…I should have forced him to do his community service so that his old lawyer, (a very good one) would have represented him. I should have talked to the neighbors and been more forceful in my belief that they should not file charges; that we could work it out amongst ourselves. I should not have been so fucking depressed and selfish when J was young and been a better Dad. I am stunned at the sentence as his is previous lawyer. 8 months in jail, 200 hours of community service, a 12 month suspended sentence and a felony record for just walking into my neighbors house looking for a couple of bucks. He was wrong…. He violated their trust and the sanctity of their home. But does he deserve 8 months and a felony record? He didn’t even take anything! Fuck me…