Thursday's Suck

I am not a fan of Thursdays.  That is the day D and I visit J at the county jail.  Yesterday we had a good visit although J is clearly depressed and frustrated with his situation.  He was fired from his jail job working at the nursing home across the street and is back on kitchen duty inside the jail.  J says that he didn’t do anything wrong.  Right…  It is never his fault.  It is unfortunate that he lost that job because it provided him an opportunity to get out of the facility six days a week.  Also, the nursing home fed him and the food was reasonably good.  Now he has a really crappy job along with food barely fit for human consumption.  Typical fare includes powdered eggs, powdered milk and some nasty processed meat products. 

Generally I am horribly depressed after visiting J but yesterday I was mostly sad.  I really don’t think that J is going to change his ways and he is now living with criminals that most likely will not inspire him to greatness.  I still spent the rest of the night in Clickerville except for eating dinner (that B prepared) with the family.  I am starting to feel more restless in Clickerville along with a sense that now I am just becoming lazy and using depression as an excuse for my irresponsibility.  I am faced with some critical deadlines relative to my finances that will impact B’s ability to get financial aid for college.  I expect I will start working on my 09 taxes this weekend.

Go directly to jail, do not pass go

I cannot think of many things worse than looking at your son through a plate glass window while talking to him on a phone during a brief 30 minute visit at the jail that he will call home for the next five months at a minimum. His friend’s girlfriend accompanied me on the visit and I also was subjected to their flirtations and innuendo swirling around the obvious affair they were engaged in. The whole situation makes me ill. He clearly has no regard for the rules about not fucking your friend’s girlfriend although he clearly won't be doing any actual fucking for a while. This is just the icing on a huge friggin shit cake. Fuck me...