Dark days

The past few days I have been rather depressed.  Monday I stayed home from work and spent 15 hours watching movies in Clickerville.  Yesterday I had a good workout at the gym and I feel a little better today. 

I was really disappointed with B over the weekend as we had a brief confrontation regarding his failure to take care of his responsibilities around the house.  He is such a great kid but he does little to help with the household chores.  Sunday night I asked him to put away the dishes (his job) and he replied with “I can't, I have to do homework”.  He uses that excuse all the time and I am growing increasingly annoyed with it.  I never discipline him anymore and I am fearful that as his “friend”, I am neglecting my role as his father.  This morning I said little to him as we walked the dog and I prepared him breakfast.  I am very uneasy with this distance growing between us and feel that it is going to come to a head soon.

More shoveling

I had a reasonably productive day yesterday. D, B and I shoveled and snow blowed the driveway and walkways. Following, B and I did a little carpentry work repairing a DVD storage rack. After that I worked on my sled and discovered it is in need of some major repairs. This is the precise reason I did not want to buy a sled in the first place.

I have been in a reasonable mood but it is too early to judge the effectiveness of the increased dosage of Lexapro.

Feeling sore

Yesterday I went snowboarding with B and his girlfriend. The conditions were marginal with a lot of ice but we had a good time. I took some rather hard falls onto the ice and am rather sore today as a result.

Christmas with the family was very pleasant. D liked the poem I wrote for her. I feel less stress now that most of my Christmas responsibilities are fulfilled.

I may be picking up a new client representing a substantial amount of business. Unfortunately they are located down in Mass but I am happy to have the opportunity.

My mood has been ok but I don't often experience what I would call "joy". I am starting to wonder if Melvin Udall was right when he asked “Is this as good as it gets?”.