Friday, January 6, 2012

Let's argue some more

It's lightly snowing in the town square today.  We have only had one storm this year and that was back in October.

D and I are in the middle of a very serious, emotionally charged argument, yet I am amazingly calm.  I am pretty frustrated with her at this point though.  I feel like I am constantly walking on eggshells around her and my stomach is often in a knot.  I am not sure if we are going to survive this round.  I have not considered that possibility for a long time, but she seems unable to resolve some trust issues that are completely undeserved and I am at a loss for  how to move forward.  I am just tired of having to defend myself against her unwarranted paranoia.  If we do split up, I have no interest in being with anyone else.  I think I would be happier alone.  It is so amazing that we are suddenly at this place when we were closer then ever before.  Once again I have learned the lesson to not let myself be vulnerable.  

1 comments:

♥N said...

hmmm... such a change from your 3 October entry.

Maybe you both need to take a step back and really evaluate everything. There's too much love there to just let things spiral downwards.