Wednesday, July 20, 2011

I have a daughter?

Monday night we had an extended version of the men's therapy group wherein we all shared the sordid details of our past.  I won...  I definitely have had the most tragic life thus far.  A close second was a man who had a abusive alcoholic father that left when he was four.  We are all a pretty fucked up bunch though.  Father issues everywhere...

The funny thing is, I am definitely the happiest man in the group (currently).  Seems ironic...

I am becoming very close to the young cadet I am mentoring, perhaps too close.  I feel pretty safe but it is like skiing right to the edge of your ability and then pushing just a little more.  At some point I have to say the phrase "I view you as I would my own daughter" to her.  I don't have an issue with saying that, but I am fearful that she actually views our relationship in a slightly different light and I might push her away.  However, I still  have to say it.  I have to set the boundaries to preserve what is truly important to me; most importantly, my wonderful wife.  I owe her that.  Ego is such a powerful thing though. 

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