Encampment

Friday night J and I went over the the local USMC reserve center and spent the night and most of Saturday with the local cadet group battalion.  I have not been in a leadership role with this group for about a year now and it was difficult for me to watch the event unfold as it was clearly not planned well.  Overall I think the 76 kids had fun but I would  have had a bit more hands-on activities and less time in the class room.

The cadet group leadership is really pushing me to open up a new unit a the USMC reserve center but I am reluctant to do so.  I have been in a pretty dark mood for some months right now and I feel completely overwhelmed with my existing commitments.  My future with this group will probably depend on what happens with this one kid from the adolescent home I have been trying to recruit for the cadet group.  If he joins, I am going to have to be a the drills anyway, so I might as well move back into a leadership role to help out.  I will simply have to develop a thicker skin recognizing that my efforts are for the kids and the adults that can't recognize why they are there can go fuck themselves. 

Saturday my nephew was married and I was able to spend a lot of time with B as a result.  He is doing well, although not sleeping much.  He likes the cross country team and looks forward to starting school next week.

Yesterday I spent the entire day watching movies and television shows.  D hung out with me as well so I did not feel completely guilty.