It is a stunningly beautiful day in the town square today. Yet my mood continues to be dark and stormy. Depression can overcome its victim in many ways. Some experience a sudden change in their life that triggers an immediate depressive episode. For me, the loss of joy and interest gradually permeates my soul much like the sea into a sinking vessel. Initially unnoticed by the crew, the ship begins to take on water in its deepest compartments. She becomes sluggish and slow to respond. By the time the crew discovers the hull has been compromised, she is foundering and the crew struggles to start the pumps. Some want a distress call sent out; but the veteran crew members insist they can save the ship without any help.
I really don't want to go back on meds; but also do not want to crash upon the rocks just as I am starting my vacation.
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Middle-aged, married with 2 kids but feels like he's still 17... Mostly dark musings and commentary on life.
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- Like Kevin Spacey in American Beauty, came alive a few years back and now I am living life. Unlike Kevin Spacey I did not end up with a bullet in my head.
2 comments:
How well you explain a depressive episode. I go through those feelings (even on meds) and mine, too, generally occur gradually. Granted, I get set off by things like my ex, too. lol I struggled with the thought of having to be on meds for years, and still do. If only they could stop depression completely...
I really like the sinking ship analogy to your stormy mood. I think most people experience bouts of depression, but some are just more affected by it. I don't know what to say, man, to make things better for you, except that all storms eventually pass, and the sunlight comes back to drown out the darkness.
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