Lost in thought

Once again I had to stop taking my antidepressant. My tongue and lips are swollen and sores are beginning to reappear. I made it through a 12 hour workday yesterday with no medication and I am hoping to do the same today. I have the Adderall but I am hoping I can remain emotionally stable without it.

I am starting to realize that I do not like thinking except when I am actively trying to resolve a problem at hand. D asked me to help her out with a word scramble when we were away but I quickly became frustrated and lost interest even though she clearly hoped we would solve it together. When I drive I avoid thinking by listening to talk radio. I should create a list of items requiring consideration and begin to develop my thinking skills.